Aloneness at Advent

“My heart is in anguish within me; the terrors of death have fallen on me. Fear and trembling have beset me; horror has overwhelmed me. I said, ‘Oh, that I had the wings of a dove! I would fly away and be at rest. I would flee far away and stay in the desert; I would hurry to my place of shelter, far from the tempest and storm’” (Psalm 55:4-8).

The loss of a loved one is not something one gets over. Time does change the shape and intensity of grief, but it never disappears. In October, I entered my second year of widowhood after unexpectedly losing my husband. My life changed forever on the morning Ted didn’t awaken here on earth. The sudden and unexpected timing of his death set in as shock that first year and stayed with me well into December and beyond.... (Click to Read more)


(Carlene Nisley is an ordained elder in the Oregon Conference of the Free Methodist Church and serves as Lead Pastor at New Vision Fellowship in Hillsboro, OR.)